Penned a few lines in class of something that was on my heart. This song explains it best:
Pornography distorting my mind. Clouding my thoughts. Fogging-up my judgement. My forbidden fruit, my kryptonite,my addiction forever. It perverts my thoughts on sex. What was once pure and ordained for marriage is now sick and twisted. Like Paul when I want to do good I end up doing wrong. Fingers typing without my consent. Thoughts being processed without my permission. Imagination bursting in without first knocking or being invited. "Jesus take this burden"I pray multiple times during the day. The enemy trying to steal my purity, trying to reduce the importance of my virginity. Curses being wrapped around my future because of my past actions. Just one drop of that Atonement blood will release me of my bonds and free me to live in the purpose He has for me. I want a long and blessed marriage. So I must walk the narrow path that many take. I want God's Favor. So I must remain near the Cross. What he meant for evil, God meant for good. His grace allows me too "confess my sins so I can be healed". Well let the healing begin! Jesus lifted the 2-ton weight off of my shoulders so now I can stand up straight.*breathes a heavy sigh of relief* Head held high and feet marching on towards the goal...
*tears* You are so real, I love you for that. You know that God uses us best when we admit our weaknesses. He will bless you for it and use it in your ministry. Thank him for his grace! You aren't in this fight alone.
ReplyDeleteLord, Deliver us from evil, keep us near the cross and on the path of your purpose! Amen.