A Glimpse Inside My Mind...(A Calandra Original)

Penned a few lines in class of something that was on my heart. This song explains it best:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QrrHJYxDyyA

Pornography distorting my mind. Clouding my thoughts. Fogging-up my judgement. My forbidden fruit, my kryptonite,my addiction forever. It perverts my thoughts on sex. What was once pure and ordained for marriage is now sick and twisted. Like Paul when I want to do good I end up doing wrong. Fingers typing without my consent. Thoughts being processed without my permission. Imagination bursting in without first knocking or being invited. "Jesus take this burden"I pray multiple times during the day. The enemy trying to steal my purity, trying to reduce the importance of my virginity. Curses being wrapped around my future because of my past actions. Just one drop of that Atonement blood will release me of my bonds and free me to live in the purpose He has for me. I want a long and blessed marriage. So I must walk the narrow path that many take. I want God's Favor. So I must remain near the Cross. What he meant for evil, God meant for good. His grace allows me too "confess my sins so I can be healed". Well let the healing begin! Jesus lifted the 2-ton weight off of my shoulders so now I can stand up straight.*breathes a heavy sigh of relief* Head held high and feet marching on towards the goal...

"Good and Bad Hair Whether You're Dark Or You're Fair...

Chris Rock was bold enough to make a documentary about a touchy (literally) subject within the black community : A Black Woman's Hair!! In his movie "Good Hair" he touches on an array of topics that Black females face everyday. Topics include : weave, natural-hair, perm, and the image that Black females project within the hair community. Also, the Bronner Brother's Hair Show and all its antics makes an appearance too.

First let me start by saying that I thought the movie was fantastic! It was funny to see our hair experiences broad-casted to a wider audience. Prior to me viewing the movie I had heard mixed reviews from twitter, facebook, and other blogs about the content of the movie. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little skeptical upon entering the movie theatre. Aside from Chris Rock's hilarious narration and interviews the documentary was extremely enlightening. The good Reverend (Al Sharpton of course) brought up an excellent point in the movie: Black females contribute tremendously to the hair industry, so why aren't there more Black owned hair businesses? Better yet, why aren't we supporting the Black businesses that are in existence? *puts up church finger and excuses myself* Preach Reverend!! Black people have struggled with this "supporting our own" issue for centuries, and at some point it needs to be addressed in depth and handled properly.

Once I was told that I had "good hair". What does that mean? Isn't all hair good? Why isn't natural hair promoted as much as straight hair? (Natural hair is freedom by the way! lol) This movie peers into the way Black females in particular tie our self-esteem/confidence into our hair will do just about anything to make sure our hair is on point! Also how females (or the S.O.'s of said female) will pay astronomical amounts of money just to have their hair done. This movie is a must-see and a guaranteed laugh factory. India.Arie sang it best "I am not my hair!I am not my skin I am the soul that lives within!" If only 85% of the Black female population knew that truth...

The Risen King!

Hallelujah You have won the Victory! Hallelujah You have won it all for me! Death could not hold you down, You are the Risen King. Seated in Majesty, You are the Risen King!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hkAREE-h2Dc

Enough said! Waves of emotion crash over my body as I listen to this song over and over again. I am so thankful that I don't have to speak to a dead god. I serve a Living God and will not waste anymore outside of my Purpose. Death could not hold Him down...he defeated the grave just like we will defeat the enemy. The fight is fixed what am I scared of?? I claim the Victory in the Mighty Name of Jesus! Time to shed the cloak of fear the devil has draped heavily over my body. Time to step into the Light of God's Promise. I'm going on a journey...and I won't stop until I see His face!

Friendship Inventory

I woke up this morning and decided to write down the way I feel about my friendships. I listened to a minister named John Gray in church yesterday and he spoke about cutting off people who are not adding anything to your life. What is a friendship if there is no honesty present? Why are people so quick to surround themselves with "yes" people who do not have their best interests in mind? Our society breeds sugar-coating, passive people who cannot by any means handle the truth. I only know one other person (you know I'm talking about you) like me who is so real that it hurts. The truth always hurts though, can YOU handle the pain? Authentic friendships are very rare in contemporary times and it's about time they came back! If you ask then I will tell you my honest (operative word is honest) opinion. I'm sick and tired of being called rude or hostile because I voice the truth that everyone is trying to cover up. I will not be silenced (I never have been but you get the point)! I have some friends who are still not used to my honesty,our relationship will be dwindling rapidly. There is no time for mediocre friendships, if our relationship is parasitic then it's done. I'm on a mission to seek and spread the Truth. I you can't take the heat kindly excuse yourself from the kitchen.

The ultimate Friend (Jesus Christ) said it best: "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends."(John 15:13). Would you?

Sunday Randomness

I'm really considering getting a tattoo on my wrist!

Papa Jones is in town! I am really learning a lot about him...

I'm not sure where I would be without God!

Why isn't it Columbus week I'm sure Christopher and 'em celebrated longer than a day when he made his discovery!

*singing like J-Hud* I aaaaaaam changing...(for the better of course)

That's all for now...

Restoration

I just had a nice long talk over Cuban food with my Daddy! I love him so much and I thank God everyday for the major changes He has made in my father. As I was listening to this man pour out his heart and emotions as freely as our waiter poured out water into our glasses, I just felt love. I came to the conclusion that God has the best sense of humor e.v.e.r. He ought to be a stand-up comedian. Just when I thought something was going one way He switches it to the opposite direction. Me: Okay cool this is going that way, God: Hahahahaha that's what she thinks! It is an honor and a privilege to serve such a humorous God and know that even when I am going through He has EVERYTHING in His control. He is truly the God of restoration and healing. I commit to willingly jump out of my comfort zone so I can see the true wonders and miracles of God. That's all for now...